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Corruption
Oct. 9th, 2004 11:30 pm...Whoo, so they made the LJ entry system a little different since I last updated.
XD When was that, anyways?
Things have just been... twisting lately, I guess. Some things in good, others bad, others... Eh, who knows?
Sean and I have been on our own for the past week; parents went down to various locales of the states on a roadtrip. They took 'my' car. >.< Thusly, I'm stuck with the boat for the next two weeks... Ye gads, but I dislike that vehicle. Still need a phonebook to drive it - and ever since Trav discovered that, he hasn't let me forgotten the fact that I'm so short I can't properly drive a (non-adjustable, large) car, and has consequently been spreading that information to everyone in earshot.
Thanks, m'dear, if you happen to read this.
Oh, no, I'm not bitter. Of course not.
It's just been that sort of day.
Settling into work, I guess - did get the receptionist job - although I'm learning so much that my poor head's spinning. So many codes that I have to memorize, and procedures, and charting techniques, and ways of doing things around the clinic... >.< It's murder on the brain, I tell ye.
Also woke up late this morning - 7:40, and I had to be there for 8. I swear, ten minutes is the fastest time I've ever been 'fully' ready in a morning.
Did the two assignments and my 232 midterm... Have been afraid/unable to pick up the midterm so far. Pleasantly surprised by the mark on my 250 assignment - but then, I always did better on the assignments than tests in 150, which doesn't bode well for the midterm this Wednesday - and just barely passed the 225 assignment, which wasn't anything different from what I was expecting, considering everything I didn't do on it. XD
Got another 225 assignment, also due Wednesday, but I have to fix the first one before I can start that. And I'm putting this off right now as I type. It just doesn't... I dunno, agree with me or something. I break out into mini-panic whenever I think about starting on it, just because trying to get the stupid thing towork compile frustrated me so much the first time around.
At least we have a four-day weekend. Or, I do, anywhoo. XD
Boss wants me to work Tuesday, though... Which is bad. Very bad. I hope to all the spirits that she got my message, 'cause if she didn't and still expects me to work... T.T I might as well just give in now, and admit that
*abruptly breaks off sentence to avoid spewing into stupid depressed shit, for dislikes when folks do that in other LJs, after all*
I can do all this stuff... I think. I just need motivation... And I'm not finding it. It's really about the same thing I was going through last year with my writers' block - now that's back in full-force, but I can't find the inspiration or wanting to do anything with school. Dunno why.
What got corrupted over the past year? I was never like this before.
But that brings me to what I really wanted to write about in the first place - the 'corruption' of my writing over the past few years; new attitudes and other stuff concerning it.
It's a double-edged sword, and it started back in Izlen.
Although, no-one who reads this will understand what that is. That's okay; just let it be known that I used to write like shit - no proper speech, actions inside of asterisks and what-not, not really much description in my posts... Not until Larksong came along, and started healing in earnest, anywhoo. Those wolves, and the environment, really helped things along - once the site made its move from its first home, I completely re-did the way I wrote, transforming it into something that actually resembled fictional third-person writing. All of a sudden, I found that I could actually handle more than one character at a time in a post, said characters could interact better with their environs and other peoples' charas, etc... It was really quite a good thing.
(I do give credit to MoonWolf and KawaiiWolf, in particular, for helping me out of that. Even if they didn't forcibly pull me out of such depths, they certainly influenced things, and continued to do so until we sorta fell out of touch.)
Since then, there's really not been much of a change in the way I structure things any more - just in the way I word things, mostly. My vocab's had quite the expansion over the past year alone - or, at least, I'm actually starting to use the greater half of it XD - and I really can tell the difference between my older posts and what my writing's like nowadays. I sometimes think that it's a pity my posts lost the 'eloquent simplicity' they used to have back in the last days of Izlen, though... One of the gals, I think Moony, said that I had a way of expressing detailed or emotive things - things that would've taken them lines upon lines to describe - in a compact form that conveyed everything, like painting a picture, yet did it... simply, without extra frills and what-not.
If only I could find some of those old posts, or the longer ones, that that was really evident in. ^^; I think I know where some of the later - even a few older ones - are lying around, but...
Right now, I have mostly eloquence, and less simplicity. I guess that's what happens as writing evolves, but... Meh, I can't really change it now.
I've still got the knack for characters - although a good group of them are all the same basic thing at heart, they've all got their own unique quirks and characteristics, and don't deviate from what they are. Larksong was always the prime example - KawaiiWolf 'lubbed' her, in part because of what she is, and in part because of how I portrayed her. Frostheart was handled in much the same manner, except she was so much more dislikable. XD
The only thing I'm still really quite weak at is plotting - I have the characters, and can make them follow along in activities, or start them off on scenarios well enough, but actually developing plots that are planned ahead, whether with one or more folks... Can't do that well. Didn't really partake of it in Izlen, still don't do it. The others can handle the details for all I care. XD I just pull the strings.
But as my own writing's evolved, I think I've become something of a text-snob. It wasn't really pronounced back in the old days - only people who couldn't write at all, no punctuation or grammar or basic understanding of the English language and how to wield it - or over-wrote, as Travis and Lizzy and Kawaii well know about XD - earned my scorn.
Nowadays, I find far too many things nitpicking about folks' posts. Being short, I think, is a major complaint of mine... It's almost like people can't be bothered to have any fun with their characters; they just move them about like so many automata, all generic except for maybe one or two traits - one's arrogant, and that's barely conveyed, or one's timid, and that's barely conveyed - and expect folk to take them seriously in the span of two bloody sentences.
*twitch* Really, two lines and one word of conversation just doesn't cut it.
I know, sometimes it's not practical to be making huge-long posts every time you say something, but when that's all I see out of a person... It doesn't matter how correct the English is any more, it's how they're using it.
Although I still don't have any respect for people who rush all their words together, using no capitals or commas or anything other than periods, even if their writing is fundamentally good. It just doesn't look... finished, like they're not really caring too much about what happens with it.
Part of this corruption probably came from AKP - we're so used to dealing with long posts there, because of the three-line rule - but that can't be the cause for all of it.
Weird, how all this develops.
On the other hand, I'm quite proud of D'lin's exit from Eleki's weyr tonight. Closing doors, heehee. ^^ Metaphorical writing isn't something I do often.
That's enough for now, though - must go find a Risk board, apparently, and then get around to fixing that thing that dare call itself code. >.< Bah.
XD When was that, anyways?
Things have just been... twisting lately, I guess. Some things in good, others bad, others... Eh, who knows?
Sean and I have been on our own for the past week; parents went down to various locales of the states on a roadtrip. They took 'my' car. >.< Thusly, I'm stuck with the boat for the next two weeks... Ye gads, but I dislike that vehicle. Still need a phonebook to drive it - and ever since Trav discovered that, he hasn't let me forgotten the fact that I'm so short I can't properly drive a (non-adjustable, large) car, and has consequently been spreading that information to everyone in earshot.
Thanks, m'dear, if you happen to read this.
Oh, no, I'm not bitter. Of course not.
It's just been that sort of day.
Settling into work, I guess - did get the receptionist job - although I'm learning so much that my poor head's spinning. So many codes that I have to memorize, and procedures, and charting techniques, and ways of doing things around the clinic... >.< It's murder on the brain, I tell ye.
Also woke up late this morning - 7:40, and I had to be there for 8. I swear, ten minutes is the fastest time I've ever been 'fully' ready in a morning.
Did the two assignments and my 232 midterm... Have been afraid/unable to pick up the midterm so far. Pleasantly surprised by the mark on my 250 assignment - but then, I always did better on the assignments than tests in 150, which doesn't bode well for the midterm this Wednesday - and just barely passed the 225 assignment, which wasn't anything different from what I was expecting, considering everything I didn't do on it. XD
Got another 225 assignment, also due Wednesday, but I have to fix the first one before I can start that. And I'm putting this off right now as I type. It just doesn't... I dunno, agree with me or something. I break out into mini-panic whenever I think about starting on it, just because trying to get the stupid thing to
At least we have a four-day weekend. Or, I do, anywhoo. XD
Boss wants me to work Tuesday, though... Which is bad. Very bad. I hope to all the spirits that she got my message, 'cause if she didn't and still expects me to work... T.T I might as well just give in now, and admit that
*abruptly breaks off sentence to avoid spewing into stupid depressed shit, for dislikes when folks do that in other LJs, after all*
I can do all this stuff... I think. I just need motivation... And I'm not finding it. It's really about the same thing I was going through last year with my writers' block - now that's back in full-force, but I can't find the inspiration or wanting to do anything with school. Dunno why.
What got corrupted over the past year? I was never like this before.
But that brings me to what I really wanted to write about in the first place - the 'corruption' of my writing over the past few years; new attitudes and other stuff concerning it.
It's a double-edged sword, and it started back in Izlen.
Although, no-one who reads this will understand what that is. That's okay; just let it be known that I used to write like shit - no proper speech, actions inside of asterisks and what-not, not really much description in my posts... Not until Larksong came along, and started healing in earnest, anywhoo. Those wolves, and the environment, really helped things along - once the site made its move from its first home, I completely re-did the way I wrote, transforming it into something that actually resembled fictional third-person writing. All of a sudden, I found that I could actually handle more than one character at a time in a post, said characters could interact better with their environs and other peoples' charas, etc... It was really quite a good thing.
(I do give credit to MoonWolf and KawaiiWolf, in particular, for helping me out of that. Even if they didn't forcibly pull me out of such depths, they certainly influenced things, and continued to do so until we sorta fell out of touch.)
Since then, there's really not been much of a change in the way I structure things any more - just in the way I word things, mostly. My vocab's had quite the expansion over the past year alone - or, at least, I'm actually starting to use the greater half of it XD - and I really can tell the difference between my older posts and what my writing's like nowadays. I sometimes think that it's a pity my posts lost the 'eloquent simplicity' they used to have back in the last days of Izlen, though... One of the gals, I think Moony, said that I had a way of expressing detailed or emotive things - things that would've taken them lines upon lines to describe - in a compact form that conveyed everything, like painting a picture, yet did it... simply, without extra frills and what-not.
If only I could find some of those old posts, or the longer ones, that that was really evident in. ^^; I think I know where some of the later - even a few older ones - are lying around, but...
Right now, I have mostly eloquence, and less simplicity. I guess that's what happens as writing evolves, but... Meh, I can't really change it now.
I've still got the knack for characters - although a good group of them are all the same basic thing at heart, they've all got their own unique quirks and characteristics, and don't deviate from what they are. Larksong was always the prime example - KawaiiWolf 'lubbed' her, in part because of what she is, and in part because of how I portrayed her. Frostheart was handled in much the same manner, except she was so much more dislikable. XD
The only thing I'm still really quite weak at is plotting - I have the characters, and can make them follow along in activities, or start them off on scenarios well enough, but actually developing plots that are planned ahead, whether with one or more folks... Can't do that well. Didn't really partake of it in Izlen, still don't do it. The others can handle the details for all I care. XD I just pull the strings.
But as my own writing's evolved, I think I've become something of a text-snob. It wasn't really pronounced back in the old days - only people who couldn't write at all, no punctuation or grammar or basic understanding of the English language and how to wield it - or over-wrote, as Travis and Lizzy and Kawaii well know about XD - earned my scorn.
Nowadays, I find far too many things nitpicking about folks' posts. Being short, I think, is a major complaint of mine... It's almost like people can't be bothered to have any fun with their characters; they just move them about like so many automata, all generic except for maybe one or two traits - one's arrogant, and that's barely conveyed, or one's timid, and that's barely conveyed - and expect folk to take them seriously in the span of two bloody sentences.
*twitch* Really, two lines and one word of conversation just doesn't cut it.
I know, sometimes it's not practical to be making huge-long posts every time you say something, but when that's all I see out of a person... It doesn't matter how correct the English is any more, it's how they're using it.
Although I still don't have any respect for people who rush all their words together, using no capitals or commas or anything other than periods, even if their writing is fundamentally good. It just doesn't look... finished, like they're not really caring too much about what happens with it.
Part of this corruption probably came from AKP - we're so used to dealing with long posts there, because of the three-line rule - but that can't be the cause for all of it.
Weird, how all this develops.
On the other hand, I'm quite proud of D'lin's exit from Eleki's weyr tonight. Closing doors, heehee. ^^ Metaphorical writing isn't something I do often.
That's enough for now, though - must go find a Risk board, apparently, and then get around to fixing that thing that dare call itself code. >.< Bah.
